This should be my last journal entry. Or perhaps not, depending on circumstance or other efforts of time yet to pass. Why? Because, my eyes, which could always see, are no longer veiled, or blinded. No longer shadowed, so that, in finality, I realize what an immense flaw it is to be here, part of this site, this "community".

DA, you see, is severely flawed, and not for the reasons I have stated before. It is an ego infected conglomeration of youth and old seeking fulfillment in what can never be fulfilling. It is not real. It is the lie of the "human" self, not the true self, the illusion, the deception, the futile effort to become famous, merely feeding the ego, nothing more.

For me to submit work, sketches, literature, anything I create, is to submit to a system that causes falseness of my being. I am not superior here. I have naught more knowledge about anything than the others dwelling at this electronic domain. My critiques, my "brutality", make nothing of the actuality, they are just the cancerous ego, acting as the facade of my cold flesh and bone.

Peace cannot be achieved here. Either the artist will "be" famous, or use another's fame to try and satisfy an empty void eating the pit of their stomach. This is not truth. This place is seeking betterment in the eyes of others to define themselves, when in fact, they define nothing but a hollow husk not truly them.

I will leave this here so that all can see it and witness it. My galleries, my works, they are not important. They were created in that shallow effort to be known and noted, this itching concept that if I reached a certain point of views and fans, I would be satisfied.

DA lacks presence, truth, reality. It's not something I can contribute to anymore. I would only serve the ego which is not my actuality, just a blazing shadow.

I wish you all well. Perhaps, someday, you can see the error as it is.